Just A Girl Next Door
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Saturday, February 27, 2010 I decided to start writing fanfics! Entitled : What happened after heartbreaker left stupidgirl. HAHAHAHA~ just kidding, I haven't confirmed the title yet (: It'll be a Jeti , Yoonyul & SunTae story with a little yulsic ^^
" Fany, i hope you're doing well now" she whispered. It's been a month since Tiffany's last goodbye , and Jessica ain't coping with her life any better as the days went past. -------
"Fany..." Streams of tears started to form uncontrollably at the thought of Tiffany. " Babo!" Jessica shouted, only to receive an empty response from the four walls of her room. Just then , her message tone sounded.For that very split second, she was somehow hoping that the message was from the one she missed so dearly. Hey Sica, I'd be reaching your place to send you to work in 10 minutes. Loveya! PS: I still can't believe that you accepted me last night(: -Yuri " Damn, why am i still hoping to receive Fany's text..." Jessica muttered. Aiish! Why can't they stop being so cheesy for once? If only Sica was here, I'd not feel so awkward then... TBC
This prologue's not completed yet luhh as you can see,hahas. Sweetheart! i know you've been reading my blog, tell me if my prologue's a successful one kay? (: ever wondered why? Friday, February 26, 2010  OMG, i went for the fansign, saw Narsha for 1 second & Ga-In for half a second! D: But seriously, Narsha & GaIn's soooooo hawt :D The dance practice @ Fong's was fun... hahas, we danced OH! & did formation xD [maybe dancing it tmr, it depends on dongsaeng(: ] We did alot of other dances too,hees (: Met unnie at junction8! I'm happy for her, she's soooo happy now ^^ PS: Thanks for sending me home(: Let's take it slow kays? PPS: I H8 scandals! ever wondered why? HEADING TO FONG'S HSE FOR DANCE PRACT. Sorry tiffany, if you're readin' this , I'm sorry i didnt keep to my promise D: i didnt call you ): But i want you to know that I'm okay now. Thanks yea? loveya!(: Heading to Fong's @ 10am with Nigel , we're gna have a dance pract ,hah. i hope i wont feel wierd cause i'd be the only girl there :O Too bad i can't stay for Mubank with Harris & Pq cause' my gna see my Narsha&Gain l8r! :D That's all for now, PS: i think i shd start writing fanfics(: ever wondered why? Thursday, February 25, 2010 I'm seriously getting good @ reading fanfics,hah! Started a new fanfic before lunchtime(: It's a heartbreaking soshi fanfic,btw (cause' JeTi were struggling throughout the story D: ) Below's a letter that Fany sent Sica after they decided to let go of each other )): sad mann, i just hope it'll be a happy ending =] ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Dearest Jessica, I wanted to scream that I liked you the other time but I didn't want any pressure on you. I've always loved you, Jessica. From the bottom of my heart, I've loved you more and more each day - especially the days we were apart. I've never stopped being in love with you. Not once did I point fingers at you and blame you for where my life is right now - without you. Maybe someday down the road we can meet up again. Maybe someday down the road we can find peace within ourselves to move on and live life without anymore regrets. I know I'm going to fight like hell to get that back in my life. I just hope beyond hope we can find room for each other - even if it is years from now. You have me, Jessica. All of me is with you and I'll never forget what we had and what we shared. Please never doubt those happy memories that we made together. Until then - goodbye. Always Yours, Tiffany ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- Cool eh? This author can write emotions fairly well i must admit (: OH! OH! OH! OH! T-ara's new MV[full] is out,whoots!  ever wondered why? I understood (: I'm not gna force anything from you (though you're very much missed) cause' i said i'd wait till we can talk properly again. How i wished i've told you my blog url though - it was abandoned until a week ago- so y'can see all these,hah. All the best, may SNSD be with you =] Anyways, i started my day with an sms coming in... Did you set your alarm to 6am just to sms me cause i told you about the "6.15call" i received last time? HAHAHA - anyhows, i appreciate it kk,thanks for everything last night too :D On a side note, I'M GOING FOR BEG FANSIGN TMRRRRRR with fellow Sone members,YAY! (SNSD is still my love,people!) Cant wait for the Sone outing on Sat too , not to forget my concert outing with sweetheart! :D Confession 1 : Despite having other choices, i only have you in mind. Confession 2: Despite having other choices, i only have you in mind. Confession 3: Despite having other choices, i only have you in mind. Confession 4: Despite having other choices, i only have you in mind. Confession 5: Despite having other choices, i only have you in mind. LOVE. Such an amazing word, so simple yet so complex - Cherilyn [25.02.10] PS: This post is sooo random. Not targeted to anyone yeah. ever wondered why? Tuesday, February 23, 2010 To hell with all the bullshit I'm taking (please pardon the vularaities in this post) Started off the morning feeling worser than before & I'm all screwedup & moody right now,hah. My mum's starting to feel suicidal,again - Thanks to my sister. My dad's giving up on trying to return back to the family - fuck that. My __________'s happy with her life,a life that's away from me,not knowing that I'm still suffering from withdrawal symptoms without her - fuck that even more. My worklife's so fixed that i dont even have the time to meetup with my friends. E________,another supervisor , blammed me for some miscommunication we had,wth all she know is to say "OH GOD OH GOD x10000000" -i thought christians are not suppose to use God's name anyhow?HMM. I hate that feeling of missing someone whereby you know that the person wont be missing you at all. Though i very much dont wish to make that asshole feel like she worth a million, i cant help but ____ ___-.- Aiish, screw the attempt to flood my blog with happy posts mann. I'd just face reality , my life is fuckedup inside out, and judgement day's next Friday,yay(?) I wake up every morning feeling drained out no matter how early i slept the night before. Smiling to the people around me and putting up a cheerful front,acting like I'm strong , acting like I dont care but actually i do, is tiring and way more exhausting than i thought. She wasn’t angry at Sun Mi. She was angry at Sunny for being a coward. For refusing to face her. Not that her heart could take that confrontation anyway. Still, she was hurt by Sunny’s act of indifference; she just didn’t care about the break-up. Taeyeon felt angry with herself for allowing this break-up to affect her too much. For wasting her weekend on thinking about sunny. For blaming herself for everything that went wrong in her relationship with sunny as the other girl didn’t seem to care. -Adapted from the new fanfic I'm readin' ever wondered why? Monday, February 22, 2010 THIS IS A MUST SHARE! :  OH!-M-GEE! , Fany's terribly cute -irresistible i should say- in this photo kayys (thanks Andrew and Azriel for sharing the picture :D ) This pic's gna be the wallpaper of one of my gadgets (:UPDATES: 1)I got super pissed of at the state of my family today - i seriously don't know what the adults are thinking, but i hope they'll settle it fast D:  2) Jessie,my supervisor, gave me a super black face today which made me feel like throwing rotten bakwa @ her .ZZZ. 3) no updates for MM3,but i read another Je♡Ti/Yoon♡Yul fanfic today! ♡ 4) Trying to juggle my activities on Sat ): PS: Kara's Lupin MV is out! So is T-ara's new MV teaser! (: ever wondered why? Saturday, February 20, 2010 SG S♥NEs DINNER OUTING UPDATES (: (it got my mind off the problems for just a while) Watched music bank together and did the fan chant for SNSD! - But it wasnt as crazy as expected lol. All i can say bout' the food there's MASHITA!!! :D JJANG! (: Clar & ii shared nengmyun & jajiangmyun together cause we wanted to try both , hees ^^ .jpg)          Jikemeun soneoshidae ~ apulrodo soneoshidae~ yongwonhi soneoshidae ~ soneoshidae saranghae OH! PS: Unnie, thanks for everything last night =] ever wondered why? Friday, February 19, 2010 First time past midnight without daddy nagging @ me. (When i wake up later, it'll be the first morning completely without him.) "your dad did it again. The female staff complained to me..." Fucktard. bastard. He grossed me out completely. BUT WHY? Why did i feel my world falling apart completely when i saw him packing? i held my tears back, for my mum & bro were already crying. i am the eldest . i have to stay strong. Then a familiar face came into my mind. i knew at the back of my mind, i HAD to sms her. Cant possibly drown my sorrows by boozin', so i drowned it in tears instead. Somehow, i was blessed with really nice friends. Angels, i would call them. S♥NEs angels (SK,Nigel,MX,Clar,Azriel,kevin,Jianhong) thanks for the encouragements , see y'all in a few hrs time for dinner (: Maryse Angel , thanks for being thr for me whenever i needed you , thanks for hearing me cry over the phone, thanks for telling me to ration things out. i knew i could count on you , i love you (: Sweetheart Angel , Though we drifted apart, you were still here to support me when i fall. Thanks,girl. Your advices are superb.Saranghae (: Nazri Angel , i can't believe i actually called you that. your super super long sms really touched me. Thanks for the comfort yea? pray hard to see a happy Cherilyn soon yes? (: Lastly, Pessie Angel , i really really appreciated what you've said to me , I'd hold the family together within my abilities, cause' someone out there and up there's watchin' over me ,loves(: Forever & A Day (Napkin & Blankie) The last chapter of MM2 came out , JeTi got back together! - yoonyul , suntae & soohara had their sweet moments too! MM3's gna be entitled CaramelCoffee ! Now that's sth worth smiling (?) for i guess :X ever wondered why? Thursday, February 18, 2010 PJ & The Lightning Thief with a few S♥NEs (: I can't believe we talked so much on msn and everyone turns out to be uber shy when we met! HAAHAHAHAHAHA~ especially Den :O :D MX thought thr'll be a long queue, so we went thr early to see that there's no queue at all. LOL. sat at Subway to pass time & wait for Den , our self-proclaim maknae xD ( tsk, all the hyungs & noonas waited for you y'know! LOL) tried talking about SNSD to make ourselves feel more comfortable , speaking of which , Nigel & Azriel traded sica in front of me! & my Fany, Aigooo~ ): Great movie ,though, i thought i wouldnt survive the entire movie with the demons suddenly popping out all the time -.- PIC-CHAS : 1) MX a.k.a the beckam guy. First person i saw in the control station & i was trying to figure out if it was him. LOL.
2) Clar & me :D - We'll get closer on our next outing kk! ^^ .jpg) 3) The lovebirds. love @ first sight on msn (?) lols. Den(left) & Nigel (right) =] .jpg) 4) GROUP PIC! :D .jpg) ever wondered why? Wednesday, February 17, 2010 CHATPER 44 IS OUT!!! (who care's if I'm in the office, I'm gna read it,hah! ) YESTERDAY'S WII WAS FUN! (: Went Mar's hse and i totally trashed shaun in boxing and once in tennis k! (though i dunno the rules and stuff xD) *Picture will be updated after i get it from mar * Going for a movie outing with a few of the sones later in the evening - it was an impromptu thing at 12 plus this morning,lols. will update more on what happen when i come back , i hope it wont be as wierd as i thought! *cross fingers* The memories are bittersweet. I cant help but think what if everything didnt end so fast. I'd be @ yr hse today. seeing Fany & the 9 angels posters all over yr room. AIISH. I'm making myself sound like a fool again -.- "First of all, I could never hate you." "Secondly, I finally realized the true meaning of love." "If you love something..let it go." "******..I'm happy just knowing you're happy." "I admit that I'm still not over you.." -Adapted from MM Chapter 44 MY BEYOND 9 Green & Red HOODIE IS COMING! WOOO~! So is my sone tee,YAY! ever wondered why? Tuesday, February 16, 2010 Read MM chapter 43. aiish. fany's one step closer in leaving sica for good :( Didn't have movie-marathon today ( omfgwth , this is the first year without it D: ) Anywayys, in the comfort of my own home, i watched SNSD vids, JeTi vids , and that alone made me smile :D & Heyho peeps, it's a misconception that Cherilyn here makes friends easily kk! (i'm shyyyy..those who seen me DAO face shd know yeah! =P) Today 5 ppl told me that sentence luhhh = = *OUCH* on a side note , i bought a SICA LANDYARD!!! ^^ can't find fany's or SY's though...i think OOS... and i bought a SNSD ez link sticker too! XD  I can't wait to go Mar's hse for wii with Shaun in a few hrs time! I can't wait for the bowling outing with gang! I can't wait for the steamboat girls-day-out-outing! I can't wait to go for the hiphop dance finals with sweetheart! I can't wait for more ksessions with Tiffany (Tiffy)! Most importantly, i can't wait for chapter 44 of MM2! HEES :D PS: Tmr SG sone's gna watch movie & go each other hse for hse visiting. Ain't think i can wake up , so I'm not going ,lols. PPS: Is it me or am i not sleeping @ 10.30 anymore? AIISH. ever wondered why? Monday, February 15, 2010 Ever since that day, I've been listening to this song... if only you can hear my cries... I'm still loving you, my heartbreaker. stupid girl loves heartbreaker and it was suppose to be vice versa too...ol'wells. I will wait & i'd give you the time till you're ready. Till then, I'm gna be a happy girl & SNSD shall be my motivation (: 猜不透 by 叮当 猜不透 你最近时好时坏的沉默 我也不想去追问太多 让试探为彼此的心 上了锁 猜不透 相處會比分開還寂寞 兩個人都只是得過且過 無法感受每次觸摸 是真的 是熱的 如果忽远忽近的洒脱 是你要的自由 那我宁愿回到一个人生活 如果忽冷忽热的溫柔 是你的藉口 那我宁愿对你从沒认真过 猜不透 相處會比分開還寂寞 兩個人都只是得過且過 無法感受每次觸摸 是真的 是熱的 如果忽遠忽近的灑脫 是你要的自由 那我寧願回到一個人生活 如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔 是你的藉口 那我寧願對你從沒認真過 如果忽遠忽近的灑脫 是你要的自由 那我寧願回到一個人生活 如果忽冷忽熱的溫柔 是你的藉口 那我寧願對你從沒認真過 到底这感觉谁对谁错 我已不想追究 越是在乎的人越是猜不透 ever wondered why? Saturday, February 13, 2010 It's all over, cause she aint wanna hurt me. Though, I'm still missing everything we've been thru,
I thought i could protect myself, i should have know better,hah! D: Since when did Cherilyn become so weak & useless? Where's the strong willed and optimistic girl everyone used to know? DAMN. But i know deep down inside, I'll still be waiting...stupid me... ever wondered why? Wednesday, February 10, 2010 You make me crazy,heartbreaker. The quarrel ytd was just pure madnesssssssss D: "Follow your heart" - I'm glad we're both truthful to each other. honestly, i didnt wanna put down the phone last night... i said i'd protect myself from being hurt by you , but i cant help but to fear losing you... asshole. you made my whole life in a mess & i'm still feeling for you. AIIISH. BABO! I can't help but think of the words you said to me last night... i'm missing em' right now ): ever wondered why? Friday, February 05, 2010 UPDATES: My life have been revolving around soshi & nothing but soshi ever since i started work! 1) Been playing farmville in the office,hah!Check out my farm! i spent almost $1000 just by forming the korean words! (:  2)I'm into soshi fanfics! (MM1 & MM2 simply rocks,jjang!) 3)tryin' to figure out how to send a concealed cash so i can get my soshi items :/ 4)cant wait to get my paws on SG sone's soshi t-shirt! (: 5)Tryin' to be more active on soshified :X PS: the k-box session with tiffy was jjang ( i got damn high from all the kpop! ) PPS: take care, maryse , you'd be fine dear (: ever wondered why?
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