Thursday, February 05, 2009 Things are getting a lil better. Cherilyn smiled and laughed today!!! ( phew!) well , in the morning , she tried to initiate a convo once more but she received a cold reply again. HENCE , Cherilyn concluded that she shall not initiate anymore because she tried initiating umpteen times, sms her , called her. it's over her limits. After all,who was the one who treated her so badly,huh? The first laugh : watched the total defence video we made ytd. HAHAHAHHAHAHA~ freaking hilarious!!!!! :DDDDD The 2nd laugh : During Bio practical when we helped Amanda,Meiyi,weixin & Lynn carry the biology files XDDDDD yanjie & Jackie. classic 8D The 3rd laugh : During lunch, after eating , we went to concourse together and i think i laughed because of...eh...teachers...and Maryse...and my stupidity of being unable to solve maths. :OO The 4th laugh: CT today was fab!!! ^^ we had college dance like umpteen times whoos! TTH ( our principal) joined us too!!! hmpft. Cat & ii were contemplating whether to stand up to grab tchers when LIN ZHENG YONG STOLE AHTAN!!!!! wthwtfomg. The 5th laugh : after PE. HAHAHAHAHHAHA it's 老师's birthday!!!! ^3^ Mrs Teng came out to give us a huge piece of mango cake xD Cat, lijing , siok , Amanda, Lynn, weixin, meiyi & me were like "raping" the whole fried chicken because there's no knife!!! LOL C.Tan also advised us to do so cause' she ain't have any knife for us 8DDDD i just found this photo inside my camera today too. i think it was taken by Siok or sth before everything was alright. we...were so near , yet , so...far...now D: Also... This picture of JT below's taken last week when we had nothing to do so i drew bubbles, a tortoise and cat on JT's hand. LOL :D on a side-note , BER BER!!!! CHEER UP!!!!! =))) ever wondered why? Wednesday, February 04, 2009 I'm just a fucked up person always making the wrong choice. screwed. it's been 3 days since I've spoken to her properly. it's kinda killin' me ( guess I'm so used to having her around me ) but it's definitely not killin' her. wthhh. not a word. instead of waiting for her to initiate a convo , i went to apologise for being harsh on her in the end. and fucking hell , when i tried to strike a convo today. she bloody hell ignored me. As if it was my fault. tried callin' her 5 times but no valid. if only she would pick up her phone. maybe. things would get better,hah. FINE. maybe I'm too soft-hearted. wthhhh again. i cant believe that I'm stuck in some stupid trap i set for myself. with maryse and all , i can find every reason to start revision , cause' everyone's studying. ( Although that's soooo not Cherilyn ) with maryse and all , i find myself in a more selfless environment. Cat's a nice girl for nuts and Fel too. but I'm having difficulties getting along with maryse. she gave me the extra push to take my first step. but when I'm there , she refuse to communicate with me. stifling. and i noticed that she cant be bothered to reserve a seat for me in lecture as well. wtffff. I think i have some kind of attraction for friends that don't really care about these things. saddening i would say. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Cherilyn feels utterly lost now. she wants to turn back time , rather continue with her status quo , but it's impossible now. ever wondered why? Sunday, February 01, 2009 Dilemma - i had enough,fuck :( WARNING! THIS POST IS NOT TARGETED TO ANYONE . Everyone asked me to abstain from her , but everyone still continues to put on that hypocritical smile on their faces. i had enough of being a pushover. stop bossing me around whenever you need me and pushing me away whenever you dont. fuck that. please people. stop asking me why isn't she sitting with me during lectures OR tutorials. whatthefuckcan. must i be so obvious? fine. SHE PREFERS TO SIT WITH WHOEVER SHE'S NORMALLY SITTING WITH NOW! AND THEY GO HAPPILY-EVER-AFTER. I'M PAST-TENSE. HAPPY? wthhhhh. 1.We have similar thinking BUT 1. she can't be bothered with my existence 2. she's kinda sick and tired of me OR 1. wild enough. BUT 1. Talks about FAIRNESS of the seating plan but end up having ME sitting at the side for 3DAYS in a row while they can fucking hell change their seating arrangement. 2. never reserve a seat for me while i'm away for a short meeting , never initiate anything. i had to fucking hell please my classmate to move down a seat so i could sit with them. ( i was foolish ) They advice me to change for the better. maybe i'd try out for tomorrow. AFTER 1 YEAR. maybe i should join others. Even if their characters are world's apart from mine. yeah. MUGGING -.- I NEED A LIL MORE COURAGE. maybe i'm pms-ing ever wondered why?
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