Just A Girl Next Door
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Thursday, November 29, 2007 it's exactly 24hrs before i board the plane to Taiwan. i can hear screams in my head telling me that I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Emotions...are overwhelming me. somehow...i feel worried. ain't know what I'm worried about though. and that kills. maybe I'm worried what I'll miss when I'm overseas? or maybe worried if everything will go according to plan in an unfamiliar country? had this rather nasty dream last night and it's freakin' me out. it's as if I'm turning into a total stranger. one that even I,myself,can't recognise. what do i actually want? i've always thought that i knew myself best. but now...it doesn't seem that way. where's the old....me? ever wondered why? Wednesday, November 28, 2007 i'm sitting in the chair writing in agony. A demon, A minor demon, is pinning me there, fucking with my head. "i'm a demon of lies",he said. "what do you want to know?"he asked. "i don't want to know anything. why are you here?" i replied. "There're white lies,black lies...and many streaks of grey lies.Everyone's a liar",he whispered into my ears. down in the dumps now and struggling to breathe. why is it always so , that whenever i try to reveal my true personality,people shun me or shuts me out? i feel desperate.despair. The urge of finding a hiding place had never been so intense. MAYBE.maybe they just don't have the capacity to understand the definition of friendship and love. or maybe it's me who doesn't have the capacity to do so. i detest myself for this. i detest the way i have to hide my feelings from everyone. i'm nothing but a liar. and i hate it. so...it's déjà vu all over again. (>///<) ever wondered why? Monday, November 26, 2007 IN THE MORNING: met blur king at orchard mrt to collect my gifts. LOL. he actually bought sth for mii when he left for HK. not bad. and i even got my 07 b'dae present! woah.  the sea shell bracelet he bought for mii in HK (:  hahas. this's my birthday present from him. this thing look sooo cute :D thanks guy =) IN THE AFTERNOON: meet sweetheart!!!<33333 heh. she gave mii my belated too. zomg. it's real cool! a pencil which was PINK AND BLACK! and a self deco notebook enclosed with a private message inside =D thanks darl!!!^^  you bet i miss her loaddds mann. haven't been meeting up every since i was busy with my O's D:D: gees. ok. went to wisma to get my old hp for servicing first. lols. it was in the early afternoon and the service centre was already flooded with peeps. O.O went cine after everything was done (: heh heh. sang till our hearts content at k box. zomg. i think i'm losing my voice. XOXO it's getting a little sore >< NEORPINTS: hahas. made one mistake by choosing a machine which bk grnd colour's green. i WAS wearing green and all the green parts became part of the background as well. -.- then i was like "faster hide the green parts ! in front of me! in front of me!" LOL. lucky the other machine was fine o.O  LOVES`` :D  heh heh. i decorated this neo! hahahas.covered the "invisible" part of me. :X  LOL. i didn't manage to cover some of the places where i blended with the background. hur hur. spot it. hahas. damn obvious.  hahas. this neo was like...taken in a rush? LOL. we're like...panicking where to stand. xDxD but it still turned out pretty nice =)  ah ha! this was one of the neo whereby a said "hide mii!" LOL. so i ended up at this tiny lil corner. XDXD  and then i found a better idea. HIDE BEHIND THE CHAIR! lolss. and so i did. =X  :)))))  hahaas! isn't this cool! lol. this pic was take in two diff parts. and then it was combined together.  this was one of the special ones too. LOL. i wonder what have gotten into us to pose like that xD but it was an experience. and it was FUN!!!!^^ EVENING: went to lwssom to collect the exam results. ok. i did pass. hahas. went there and none of the peeps that we knew were there except Chen liang. x(( gees. we must go back one day to visit AK and HC!!!D: IN SUMMARY : today was lovely and i had fun(: heyy sweetheart! let's go out again soon kayy?maybe after my trip to TW =) ever wondered why? Friday, November 23, 2007 NEWS: 1. i've changed to a new hp 2. i'm flying for taiwan on 30th NOV to 4th DEC :)))) 3. decided not to work. i'm just not cut out for it this hols since i've so much activities going on 4. meeting sweetheart on mon :D 5. blur king suddenly said he have presents for me. ooh. *shocked* going to collect it on Mon too. ever wondered why? Thursday, November 22, 2007 back from 2D chalet (: zomg. woke up damn early this morning but went back to dreamland a minute later. LOL? so... it's a k box date with mii and Tiffany =) we FINALLY set out on a date. hahas. had loadds of fun singing my lungs out!!!^^ especially when we sang Angela zhang's songs xD NEOPRINTS: ok. didn't managed to go to dhwani's house to use her scanner. hahas. so i'll just scan in using my low quality scanner. LOL -.- will update again though.  :)  :)  :)  went for 2D chalet after k-box-ing. hahas. everyone went to cycle except dhwani ,Tiffany and mii. stayed in the room reading mag and laughing our heads off. AHAHAHAHA!:D that's when we got reeeeealllly hungry. LOL. so we decided to settle our dinner my ordering mac as the bbq's tmr and we doubt the peeps who were cycling were coming back any time soon. went downstairs to wait for the deliveryman as well as watch "deal or no deal". hahahaha! and guess what? all along we've thought that only we 3 were in the chalet but in the other room,there were like...close to 10guys? LOL. they were playing psp in the room and didn't go for the cycle. hahas. the cycling peeps came back at around 9? went up to the room after deal or no deal've finished. gees. nobody wanted to play truth or dare x-cept mii,tiff and dhwani x(( worst still. dhwani said she wanted to go persuade jyi and jyn they all to play and ended up watching the "search for the next pussycat dolls" with em =.= GREAT. hahas. and as soon as the show finished, the guys decided to go for night cycle again. ok. so the game wasn't played at last. then Tiffany had to take a shower while dhwani....ain't know where she went but she wasn't in the room. lols. played cheena chess with Eisen. damn it! i was OWN by him!!! argh. hahas. after playing 3 rounds of cheena chess,i gave up and we started looking at the videos and pics in his hp. lol. his ex-gf....lol. skin abit dark in the pic. XOXO that's what Cy said too. LOL. then we lemme see this damn cute vid on the history of WW2 and this Elmo thingy. ROFL. then soon,it was time to go home. dad came to pick mii at the bus stop but i didn't know how to go... so Eisen accompanied mii there. thanks guy^^ (although u keep suan-ing mii :X) yupp. so it was home sweet home. didn't stay at the chalet due to the interview i'm having tmr. >< ever wondered why? Wednesday, November 21, 2007 OK. sooo. it's late at night and i'm not asleep. about 11 more hrs before i meet tiffany. talking to 老婆Van online now. haven't talked to her in a real long while. omg. we have SO much in common indeed! lol including the feeling i'm having now. heh heh. shhhh~ it's our lil secret okayy?=)) i can't believe i actually said it. LOL. we rawk manns. and thanks honey(: for listening to mii. AND for not stigmatising/anthering/pollening/ filamenting/styleing/ovarying/ovuming/ovaing mii :D chatted and talked all the craps. hahas. i still think that -ve 0.1cm's the longest sweetie =D OHS. and thanks for the help for that account thingy. LOL. if not i'll be trying till my hair turns grey. xDxD ever wondered why? Tuesday, November 20, 2007 HOOK ME UP (: I'm feelin’ so alone. ever wondered why? Monday, November 19, 2007 so... it's grad night today. hahahs. laughed alot. the MC rockks mann! lol chang run became chicken boy xD and whees~! Zoe won prom queen! yeah babe! she've done our class proud ^^  ah ha! in my parents bedroom. took this photo b4 i left to meet the rest. LOL.  heh. mii;xuanz and qians were in the ladies for almost 2hrs just by putting make ups. LOL.  our menu for tonight ^^v there's sharkfins! wooooo~ :DDDD  qians;mii :))) cam-whoring in the ladies ;D  LT;mii hahaahs. hey gurl! arrange another sake trip kayys? :D  sherm ; mii :))) ZOMG. she look fab in that dress manns!=)  xuan'an ; mii :D hahas. sake gang.hmms~i wonder when will we meet up for a sake trip again :/  mii; shiyan. heh. with my heels i look so much taller nows. xDxD  mii ; sendy :)))  mii;kede. zzz. he even asked mii if he need to bent down while taking the pic. ARGH. hellooo? i'm already taller with my heels on!!! lols. =D  california maki ; mii :D heh heh. i know he still hates mii for calling him that. wahahahhahahaa~ i'm gonna miss sake gand terribly D:D:  minikingkong ; mii. awww~ i'm gonna miss her. LOL!  mii; tercia :))) heh. i'll miss her laughter and those cute sneezes xD  tiffany ; mii. omg. i look terribly WHITE in this pic! LOL?! lurve ya gurl!:D and we haven't gone our k box trip YET =.=  angeline ; mii. omg. never talked much since we entered upper sec. anywayyss....great friend ta have =)  mii ; Rena :))) had been a long time since we've talked too. misses``  louis ; mii :))) omg. that guy! GRRR~ he just learnt this coin trick and REFUSES to tell mii the secret behind it. argh D:  mii ; ah pa!!!^^  wenna ; mii :))))  mii ;phuazzyy wazzyyy ; qians =D  friends forever((:  ahahahas~ 帥哥;mii;master cheng :D  :)))  :))  4i :))))) ZOMGGG. my legs are aching like mad from all the walking in that stewpid heels. :/ hope it gets better. or i'll be immobilized tmr. o.O ever wondered why? Sunday, November 18, 2007 went for my granduncle's 60th birthday today :))  woah~ look at the cake my uncle got from shangri-la hotel :D  that's my granduncle =)  and his family ;D  blowing the candles~  the guests plus hosts =D  omg. my granduncle gave a speech b4 cutting the cake and he cried! woah~ he bought a pressie for my grandaunt and uncle. heh heh. touching scene manns D:  wakakakakaka~ here's my little cousin who just came back from competition. guess what competition was it? it's Cha Cha!!! ain't know that primary schools these days have cha cha as one of their CCAs ever wondered why? Saturday, November 17, 2007 went out with 老婆 to vivo todayy((: heh. it's been quite some time since we had a chance to go out together =) tallked alot...walked alot...shopped alot~ *smiles* bought my shoes and bag le. LOL. like...WHOOTS!it's grad night on mon!:DDDD  heh. this nail polish 是老婆送给我的哟! so sweet right! hahas. thanks alot darl (although 是 自恋:  :) .jpg) :)) .jpg) :))) +.jpg) :)))) .jpg) :))))) .jpg) :)))))) ENJOYED. PS:heh heh.老婆~我夠好吧!never upload the candid shot i took of you 自戀-ing with yr hp wor~! wakakakakakakaaka~ =D ever wondered why?
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