Dilemma - i had enough,fuck :(

WARNING! THIS POST IS NOT TARGETED TO ANYONE .




Everyone asked me to abstain from her , but everyone still continues to put on that hypocritical smile on their faces.


i had enough of being a pushover. stop bossing me around whenever you need me and pushing me away whenever you dont. fuck that.


please people.
stop asking me why isn't she sitting with me during lectures OR tutorials.
whatthefuckcan.
must i be so obvious?
fine.
SHE PREFERS TO SIT WITH WHOEVER SHE'S NORMALLY SITTING WITH NOW!
AND THEY GO HAPPILY-EVER-AFTER.
I'M PAST-TENSE. HAPPY?
wthhhhh.





1.We have similar thinking

BUT


1. she can't be bothered with my existence

2. she's kinda sick and tired of me

OR

1. wild enough.

BUT

1. Talks about FAIRNESS of the seating plan but end up having ME sitting at the side for 3DAYS in a row while they can fucking hell change their seating arrangement.


2. never reserve a seat for me while i'm away for a short meeting , never initiate anything. i had to fucking hell please my classmate to move down a seat so i could sit with them. ( i was foolish )





They advice me to change for the better.
maybe i'd try out for tomorrow.
AFTER 1 YEAR.
maybe i should join others.
Even if their characters are world's apart from mine.
yeah.
MUGGING -.-
I NEED A LIL MORE COURAGE.


maybe i'm pms-ing