just had a big quarrel with my mother.
cried like nothing else.
said a thousand sorries but she just wouldn't listen.
she kept scoldin mii.
blaming mii.

said i am the cause of ALL the unhappiness in this family.
i didn't wanna quarrel with her.
so i apologised once again.
she said that sentence to mii when i was 6 yrs old ,dad said it when i was 14 and she repeated it once more when i was 16.
it's really hurtful if they didn't realise it.
it hurt mii for 10 yrs and again and again when she told mii ytd.



she said i cared less about this family.
WHO was the one who cried like mad when YOU & dad met with a car accident?!
WHO was the one who stayed up past midnight just to accompany dad to watch the show that he wanted though i'm really very tired?!
WHO was the one who actually comforted YOU when u had problems with dad?!
WHO WHO WHO????!!!!!
WHO was the one who wanted to treat YOU better?!
WHO was the one who felt even the slightest guilt when being forced to lie to YOU?!
WHO was the one who didn't laugh when YOU fell and instead cared for you?!
WHO was the one who was afraid that your Thyroid will get worst and hence taking all the blame?!



you didn't care about all these.
uh huh.
you didn't at all.
u just hurt mii like that.




YOU made mii learnt how to keep quiet.
and you bet i will from now on.
YOU made mii learnt how FUGLY this adult world is.
YOU made mii learnt that i can't even trust YOU.
YOU mad mii learnt how much a mother can hurt her own daughter.
YES.
thanks for the precious lessons you've gave mii.
thanks A MILLION.

i'm dead.
my heart's dead.


(believe it or not.)